Sunday, April 1, 2018

The Family Shame



It wasn’t your fault. You weren’t to blame.

You were so helpless, and what a shame.

He invaded your body, created a wound,

took your innocence from you much too soon.

No one held your hand and said, “it would be okay,”

they sent you back in with him, told you to “go play.”



So deep inside hid the family secret,

and the little girl they expected to keep it,

but you could not stay silent,

you lashed out, became defiant.

You kicked, screamed, and cut yourself.

You had been benched, your feelings on a shelf.



Then they turned on you, because you embarrassed them so.

You told the secrets no one was supposed to know.

They pointed their fingers, but you weren’t to blame.

You were only a child living in pain.

The scapegoat you were. The black sheep you’ve been,

and in sight there seemed to be no end.



 You’ve carried the burden upon your shoulders,

and prayed things would get better when you’re older.

The pain continued, tears often shed,

and may times you wished yourself dead,

but you stood tall, as tall as can be.

Now no one will ever again bring you to your knees.

Sunday, March 11, 2018

My Costume


Inspired by the book Outlaw written by Ted Dekker



The flesh I wear, my dirt brown skin,

weak muscles glazed in fat,

bones and joints, red cells, white cells,

nerves running long and deep

it needs, it wants.



It needs water to survive.

It wants poison in a shot glass,

ping pong balls in red, plastic cups

colorful drinks, umbrella decorations,

with salt on the rim.



It needs air to breathe.

It wants Marlboro Menthols

to take the edge off, grass in a pipe

to get in the mood, herbs baked in

chocolate cupcakes so it can relax.



It needs love and affection.

It wants to hook-up

in the back of a Nissan,

to feel warmth, another body

one with it’s own, lips and tongues,

sweat and blood, still it’s not enough.

It wants more. More flesh, more blood,

more skin.

Thursday, March 8, 2018

The 5 Stages of Grief Song Cycle

Song Cycle Recording (Click link to listen)

Please enjoy the genius composition of good my friend Stephen Ryan Jackson, and the fantastic piano accompaniment of Mrs. Abigail Payne Sanders. This song cycle is for anyone who has ever loved and lost; and to the ones who left us broken hearted, life goes on.